I personally am not quite sure why I am writing this. Perhaps it is to help myself, perhaps it is just go get out my feelings. I don't know, but I know I must :)
There are people in this world who would absolutely love to see me miserable. There are people out there, who everyday are trying to make my life worse. They would like nothing better, than for me to cry. For me to be depressed. It seems that what they want most, is Kason's misery. If they can achieve that, then they feel accomplished.
And one of the stupidest things, is that these people were once my very good friends. And sometimes, I actually believe that they are going to be just that. A good friend. I get sucked in to an idea that they actually care about me, when really, of course they don't. They care about no one but themselves.
Sometimes I feel like the whole world is against me, and there is no one on my side. But that is just not true, you see. Even if the whole world thought I was worth nothing, I, ME, I think I am worth an awful something.
So You See? The only thing I have to say is, in the words of the Pete Townshend:
"I'll tip my hat to the new constitution, take a bow for the new revolution, SMILING free to the change all around. I'll pick up my guitar and play, just like yesterday, and I'll get on my knees and pray... We don't get fooled again!"
I won't get fooled again. I don't need you, any of you.
And Raindrops may be fallin' on my head. But I know that happiness will come up to greet me, sometime. :)
oh! i want to give you a hug! you do have friends! you do!! and most of us would do anything to see you happy! you ARE worth so much, and you should never think otherwise. ok? love you tons, A'Lea
ReplyDeletewell i love you. sad kason or happy kason, you are my friend. just try to remember that.
ReplyDeleteyou mean the world to me.