Keeping Me On My Feet

Change.

It seems like our whole lives are always changing, every day we feel different and see things different.

Sometimes I can't figure out if that's a blessing or a curse.

Don't you wish you could just hold onto something?

Forever?

And actually trust that it would never change?

I do.

But I suppose that's what memories are for.

Because even if the person you shared them with,

Doesn't remember, doesn't care, and doesn't hold onto them.

You do, and it happened.

Even if everything changes from then on..

The moment in the past doesn't.

And never will

As long as you live..

The memory is constant.

I love that.

A lot of times, we hear to live in the present.

And only so.

But I wouldn't forsake dreaming...

For sometimes the present isn't so easy.

But Your Dreams can always be full of light.

Even if they're impossible, or ridiculous..

They can be your Waterloo Sunset.

And always be fine.

Sometimes I think I'm so selfish.

Selfish Selfish Selfish.

But I don't want to be...

How do we balance taking care of ourselves..

With unselfishness?

It's confusing sometimes.

Can I just give myself up?

I really want to..

Just let myself go..

And do whatever it is everyone else wants me to.

At least then everybody else would be happy.. right?

I'd lose all respect

I'd be taken advantage of

I'd be taken for granted.

that's what they tell me.

I stood up for myself the other day.

I finally did exactly what I wanted.

And simply said "I don't Care"

And now I feel sad about it.

Funny how you probably don't care.

And never have.

What's really the right thing to do?

It says in the scriptures it's easy to figure out

Anything that leads you to God is good

Anything that leads you away, even a little bit, is bad.

But what about when you can't tell where the road takes you?

What about when your lost?

I want to do what's good.

And according to everyone else, I did.

But who's right?

I'm confused

Can someone tell me?

Or push me?

Or forcefully drag me?

Down the right road?

Because sometimes I don't know...